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Dear Readers,

It’s back.

The leukemia is back. It’s in my spinal cord, but localized in one spot. The news was revealed not by surgery as expected, but, instead, by a lumbar puncture (thankfully performed by Interventional Radiology) and a 3-hour long MRI. Tomorrow, I will have an echocardiogram, a power port implanted, a bone marrow biopsy, and my first dose of chemotherapy.

My doctors have never seen Acute Lymphoblastic Leukemia (ALL) manifest like this. They’re consulting bigger hospitals to discern just how to treat me. At the end of the day, though, the goal is to eradicate the leukemia cells and then have a bone marrow transplant.

I need prayers, Dear Readers.

I need love and light and healing vibes. I am relying on others—on you—to be my strength in those moments that I have none. This fight will be a long one. This fight is going to require guts and stubbornness. It’s a battle that I will need your help with. I will need your encouragement. Your words of kindness, of hope, of love.

I know some of the landmarks of this path, but in many ways, it is completely new journey to me. I would be lying if I said I wasn’t terrified. I would be lying if I said that I wasn’t hovering on the edge of being okay and complete hysteria.

BUT I plan on walking this path with grace.

I plan on cultivating gratitude and positive attitude as I go.

I fully intend to make the most of my time here, treating every day as the precious gift that it is. Even tomorrow, when I wake up in pain from the procedures, I will find something good to cling to. I will see the blessings in the day, even when my eyes are tear-filled.

Please, Dear Readers, keep my family and I in your prayers. Keep the good thoughts coming and I promise to do the same. This blog will continue to be a place of hope, of gratitude, of healing.

This will be the space that, every week (maybe not always on Mondays), where we can continue to meet.

 

With Love,

Laura

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